Before.

"Before.

I could run, and not grow weary.

I could hug people without fear of pain.

I could sleep for more than 3 hours at a time.

Before.

I could easily cuddle next to my wife.

I could carry my son to bed.

I could go days with out pain medicine.

Before.

People didn't look at me with that look.

I could wrassle with my boy.

I could teach all day and not be tired.

Before.

I used to cook all of our meals.

I could hold on to cold things.

I was stronger, and faster.

Before.

I could hang on to my words.

I could track a conversation easily.

I didn't repeat myself.

Before.

I didn't know how caring people could be.

I didn't know I could put my trust in them.

I didn't think I could put myself out there.

Before.

I didn't realize how strong my wife could really be.

I didn't realize I had 3 best friends.

I didn't realize how much weight caring words could carry.

Before.

I didn't realize how much God loved me.

I didn't know he could use me this way.

I didn't know I could be this strong.

Before."

Authors note: this poem was not intended to be sad. It is simply meant to express the things I am feeling, and the hope that I have for a return to the things I love and care about.