Two Septembers ago, I had some kind if sudden onset of fatigue while I was doing a short run in marathon training. I cut the run, and the marathon training short. I did however, continue to do a half marathon that September. After that, I cut my running significantly. When we started our next Run for God program the following March, I felt very fatigued, out of breath, dizzy, and could not keep up.
The last two months or so, I've been having a lot of back and abdominal pain. After a particularly bad day on Tuesday, I decided to call the doctor and get an appointment. They ordered an ultrasound, and an x-ray, and bloodwork.
Now mind you, it's concert time for me. I have a concert next week, and would hate to miss any part of it, for anything. I don't like being absent at my job, and I don't like missing the things that I feel like I need to do. Plus, whenever anything medical comes up, all I can see are $'s.
I received a call shortly after my ultrasound yesterday, to discuss the results with my doctor. It turns out that I have an enlarged liver, and they don't know the reason...yet.
So now I await the call to set up a CT scan, hopefully today. I'm fasting, just in case I need to do that. Man, I'm hungry.
Perfect timing, Huh? I know there are people that can and will help if needed, but it's not like I am incapacitated. In fact I feel better today than I have in a while.
Somehow, I am remaining the calm one.
Hepatitis. Fatty liver Disease. Those seem to be the most common. I'm not a heavy drinker (or a drinker at all, really). What gets me is I feel like I may have done this to myself.
I have been known to binge eat. Introducing sugars into my body in large quantities. That happened occasionally over the last few months.
Also - when I started feeling this fatigue, dizziness, and weakness in March, I thought maybe I had an iron deficiency. So I started taking some iron. Not every day, but often. What if doing either of those things brought this on? Then I only have myself to blame.
Which is perhaps why I'm calm. I can't get upset at anyone else. I know God wouldn't do this to me. But somehow, he'll use me, and my situation, for good. Even if it's changing my own habits for the better...again.
I know one thing. It's not my timing. God has perfect timing, and he will set me up to do what needs to be done at just the right moment.
People have asked what they can do for me (us) already. Again - I'm not incapacitated. If I need help, I won't be afraid to ask. But if you are reading this, friends, and you pray, please pray....
That Lisa and Adam are comforted. That we and the doctors can make the right decisions, and that I can be used to show the glory of God, even through pain, and hardship. That I make it less about me, and more about others.
And friends, and family...if you are just hearing about this, it's because I just found out. If you want to call or text, send me a message somehow, and I'll give you my number.
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